“What do you want me to do for you?”

This question I resonated with recently from John’s gospel: “What is it you want me to do for you?” At first, I couldn’t go with it because of the context of the story, but then I took it out of context and imagined a new story with the same question…

Imagining that I am walking through the park – I see, just ahead, someone I think I may know, so I walk closer – then closer – and that other person sees me and comes closer and closer. We stop right in front of each other, and it is Jesus. He asks, in that immediate way he has of seeing directly into our souls at the deepest level – “What do you want me to do for you?”

Since my heart is laid bare before Him, all pretenses, all pride, all masks that I have are as flimsy as gossamer silk and as see-through as a window pane. I can only say, “You know, O Lord, surely you know?” I respond this way because only Jesus sees deeply into who and what I am – and in truth, may be the only one who knows what I do want in the deepest longings of my heart – I may not even know myself what I want at that deep a level; at the soul-longing level.

I used to think I knew some things – but now they seem to trivial. What do I really want from the depths of my being for Jesus to do for me? Maybe – just maybe if I was able to put aside all my selfish wants and needs that seem so tied, so anchored to this life, I’d be able to begin to say – “Teach me, Lord, to love like you love – to comfort like you comfort, to encourage like you encourage…maybe, O Lord, I want to be more like you…but please don’t give me the keys to your kingdom – just let me serve – love – and be loved.”

What do you want Jesus to do for you?

~Scottrick

“Kneel always when you light a fire.” Rev. John Ensign

About Scottrick

Parent ~ Pastor ~ Poet ~ Author
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